Music and me: a rec story

Sep. 24th, 2017 08:42 am
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My first romantic relationship was when I was 15.

I was a sophomore at an all-girls Catholic school, acting in my school's production of Agatha Christie's "And Then There Were None." Because it was an all-girls school, our director had adapted the script to make as many characters female as possible. Or, at least as possible as a Catholic imagination could manage in 1990. Only 4 boys' parts were left after the adaptation, and we acquired the boys from our brother school across the neighborhood. One of them became my literal favorite person. We talked *all the time.* Everyone else in the cast decided we were married. He introduced me to both REM and They Might Be Giants, which, if you know me, pretty much sums up the core of my musical DNA.

He was also, as he finally managed to figure out some time later, thoroughly gay.

When we were 15? This was not remotely a problem. There is a closeness that happens quickly when you are working on a performance. There is a level of trust that much be built up, and an intensity that can't really be simulated. We talked, we bantered, we hugged, we stood too close to each other. The whole time we considered ourselves "going out," (about 9 months) we saw each other outside of school functions and meeting up at the bus transfer our schools shared a total of maybe 3 times. That was fine. We talked on the phone almost every day.

And we made mixtapes.

If you were a teen in the '90s, you know already the power of mixtapes. But let me see if I can articulate it. Before iTunes, before Spotify, before Pandora, before fucking *Napster*, the only way the average kid had to create their own personal playlist was to record their songs of choice to a cassette tape. And the only really effective way to do this was to own a stereo with dual cassettes and manually hit record when the song you wanted began on one side, recording it to the blank tape on the other side. And you tried like hell to get the songs to blend smoothly, maybe rewinding a smidge when you got a couple notes of the next song accidentally recorded onto the blank.

What I'm saying is that it was a long, arduous process. It wasn't what we do now with today's playlists, adding a song with a click of a button, rearranging as we go. It was deliberate. It was thoughtful. If you weren't going to think it through, you weren't going to do it at all.

Every song meant something.

I mean, at least the way I did it. You couldn't make a mixtape without also listening to the song as you recorded it. I think at some point, the technology existed to speed up the recorded song as it was taped by like 2X or 5X, but why bother? Listening to each song as you placed it in its order like a string of beads that you would then present to your love with a smile? The entire fucking point.

I still have the tape John made me, somewhere. The same way I have the notes he wrote me, the card attached the to the rose he gave me, and the pictures of us at one school dance and the trip to the local amusement park that both our schools went to on the same day at the end of the year.

That tape introduced me to Erasure, and Tori Amos (so much makes sense in retrospect, you guys. I digress.)

All of this is to say that the narrative trope of pining characters speaking to each other through songs? Touches me at a deep, deep level. I like songfic a lot in general, but when it's done exceptionally well? I fall, hard.

This is all to say that right now I am deeply in love with Setting Sun, by LittleLostStar.

But let me back up for a minute.

When I got super fannish about Yuri On Ice!!!, I started by reading the big fandom hits, like you do. Then I got obsessed for Otayuri, and found not only fic, but playlists based on that ship, and I poked through them, found my favorites, curated my own playlist out of my individual favorite songs on different playlists, etc. Like you do.

A lot of the stuff that would pop up on Otayuri playlists was appropriate, but also obvious. Like, it started to feel like most of it was just made up of whatever songs were already popular right now--the stuff that shows up on Pandora's Teen Radio station all the time. I enjoyed it, and I started writing some songfic for them based on the ones I thought *really* fit best (which I should totally finish one of these days, whatever), but I also got occasionally annoyed at how US-centric the song choices always were. But my critique/celebration of cultural translation in YOI is an entirely SEPARATE POST.

The thing that is special about Setting Sun isn't just that it's the story of Yuuri and Victor literally speaking to each other only through song lyrics, and each song has very pointed and specific meaning (I mean, that's obviously A LOT of what I love about it, see above re: mixtapes), but it's also a playlist with a narrative attached. It's not a pile of songs with a certain aesthetic (which the Otayuri playlists generally are, and that is fine and good and I enjoy the thing). I've re-read Setting Sun several times, and listened to the playlist at the same time every time so that now I can just listen to the playlist and relive the story, deep in my feelings. And that is also what listening to a mixtape was like. You relive the feelings that a person makes you feel, anytime you want, by listening to the music they send you.

Not all of the songs in Setting Sun are explicitly romantic. A ton of them are sassy. Some of them are pissed off. A bunch of them express Yuuri's anxiety, or Victor's depression. And then a bunch of them are just pure sex. And it's alllllll good. The narrative, and the songs that go with it, earn the sexy songs, which you know makes them that much better.

And the songs themselves? Some of them I already knew (Savage Garden, Fiona Apple, natch). Some of them were new songs from bands I knew but hadn't followed closely in a while (Pompeii, Tegan and Sara, Lucius). There's not as much European or International pop as I'd realistically expect from Victor and Yuuri, but there's enough, and at least not every song is in English (Latin counts, okay?) And enough of the music is both new to me and also deeply moving and very good that I've also just started diving into the back catalog of some of these new-to-me artists.

And I've started just sharing individual new fave songs with people (hi [personal profile] kass!) and had to explain that, yeah, I got this from a YOI fic.

It doesn't matter how you feel about Yuri On Ice!!! Seriously, listen to this song.
This means you, [personal profile] heresluck.

For the past year, I've been listening to music more and NPR and podcasts less. It was partly because I wasn't commuting an hour anymore (more like 2 minutes, seriously) and partly because I just desperately need to not listen to the news and to, just, stick an IV of joy into my veins. YOI was part of that IV of joy, but now the music I've been acquiring because of YOI has also taken up this job, and it's much more portable. I bought a bluetooth shower speaker so I can start every day with the right mood. I wear headphones at my desk while I compose assignments. I wear headphones at home while I read fic on my laptop in the living room and the kids watch Dan and Phil on Youtube, or Jay watches trail runners. And I always, always listen to playlists in the car.

It isn't always Setting Sun, but it often is. And sometimes it's the offshoot playlist I made of just the fuck jams. Because sometimes you don't need the full narrative. Especially if you've already internalized it.

Playing those on my way to and from UMass to submit my final PhD paperwork worked pretty well, I'll tell you what.

This is all to say that, if you like Yuri on Ice!!! OR mixtapes, or just great music, maybe check out some combination of the fic and the playlist. I bet you'd be glad you did.

I can't remember, [personal profile] sanj, if I dropped this one into my stream-of-consciousness-on-hangouts-reclist for you, but even if I already have, consider this a bump up to the top of the reclist.

(Oh, also. It's still a WIP, and it updates slowly, but it's canon-parallel, and already over 80K, and the author is still clearly working. And even if it ends now, it's thoroughly satisfying at this point, so no worries.)

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Sep. 24th, 2017 04:29 pm
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Rest here @ [personal profile] magical_sid

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Heroes (3)

The numinous

Sep. 24th, 2017 09:11 am
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How often do you sense the numinous? The mysterious, awe-inspiring otherness of God? As a mountaineer, all through my life I have known moments when my being has been stilled - by a sudden sense of presence... of a God "just round the corner"... a sense of the deep mystery and loveliness of God. In a sense, I think God calls to us this way, all along our journey. Perhaps that's why people were drawn out to the wilderness. Perhaps that's what Moses felt when he saw the burning bush. I also feel it in great cathedrals sometimes. Or at dusk, as light fades, and the day stills. It's as if, sometimes, at God's choice, we are overshadowed by God's presence, and we know God is there, but God seems deep and beyond our words and explanations.

At times like this, we realise that though God is personal and can draw so close to us, God is also God, and beyond our control or definition. At this point, it is as if we are aware of a 'cloud of unknowing', and our tense mental control runs out of road, and in silence and wonder we become simply recipient. I love this 'hidden' God. This God who is so deep. The God, who when we stop and rest by the constantly flowing stream, is 'just around the next bend in the river'. And incites us, and touches us with yearning, and leads us on.

Do you have experiences like these?

For allbingo

Sep. 22nd, 2017 06:20 pm
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Title: Dawn of Destruction

Summary: Bespin is evacuated, and Rey has to face Kylo Ren once more.

Prompt: Abandon Ship!

Disclaimer: I own nothing.

Author's Notes: Was about to get a continuation of my "Shara Lives" story -- and I will get to that, never fear -- but let's say a bit of a recent revelation of awful about The Last Jedi sort of got me typing in my main verse again. Anyway, here's the Bespin evacuation scene.

Fic under cut. )

Star Trek Novel Icons

Sep. 22nd, 2017 06:17 pm
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20 Star Trek: Rihannsu icons and 55 other Star Trek TOS book cover icons over here.

For whole_new_world

Sep. 22nd, 2017 12:37 pm
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Title: Second Mother

Summary: In a galaxy where Shara Bey lived, how would things have turned out differently?

Prompt: Dead Character(s) Alive

Disclaimer: I own nothing.

Fic under cut.  )
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Schedule:
Nominations: 18th September - 1st October
Sign-ups: 4th - 18th October
Assignments: sent by 20th October
Deadline: 26th November
Posting period: starting 1st December

Description:
[community profile] public_call is a secret santa fic exchange for Doctor Who and its various related fandoms, run through LJ/DW and AO3. Participants sign up to write a story of at least 1,000 words involving a relationship between two or more characters someone else has requested. In return, they receive a story of at least 1,000 words with a relationship they have requested.

Nominations now open

For trope_bingo

Sep. 21st, 2017 03:01 am
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Prompt: Rare Pairs

Disclaimer: I own nothing.

Artist's Notes: Was mostly thinking of doing things on the Ben and Poe side, as that's mostly where I do my work -- in the backstory. Mostly they're based off my story "The Broken Edge", a.k.a. my giant-as-heck backstory for Ben and company. 

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the motherload

Sep. 19th, 2017 08:39 pm
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In light of the Equifax security breach announced on September 7th, I strongly recommend placing credit freezes on the following:
  • Equifax: https://www.freeze.equifax.com/Freeze/jsp/SFF_PersonalIDInfo.jsp (freeze is free until 11/21/2017)
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    If your PIN resembles this format, mmddyyhhmm, e.g. 0908172136 for September 8, 2017 at 9:36pm (i.e. time stamp of when you placed your freeze online), go online or call them right now and unfreeze it. Wait 15 minutes. You can then re-freeze online and get a totally randomly generated PIN that isn't of that previous format (EQ fixed their PINs to be much more secure).
  • Experian: https://www.experian.com/ncaconline/freeze (fees may apply; see below)
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    States I've been told you can freeze your EQ, EX, TU reports for FREE:
  • Colorado
  • Indiana
  • Maine
  • New Jersey
  • New York
  • North Carolina
  • South Carolina.

    IMPORTANT: I believe these four states automatically unfreeze your credit reports after 7 years: Kentucky, Nebraska, Pennsylvania, and South Dakota.

    Credit freeze fees by state,
  • according to Equifax: https://help.equifax.com/servlet/fileField?entityId=ka137000000DSDyAAO&field=attachment__body__s (though placing a freeze is currently FREE from 9/07/2017 to 11/21/2017)
  • according to Experian: https://www.experian.com/news/security-freeze.html
  • according to TransUnion: https://www.transunion.com/credit-freeze/credit-freeze-information-by-state
    Keep in mind fees could apply when thawing or lifting a freeze, and they vary by state.


    You should also pull all your credit reports (which you can do once every 12 months for FREE):
  • Equifax: https://www.annualcreditreport.com/
  • Experian: https://www.annualcreditreport.com/
  • TransUnion: https://www.annualcreditreport.com/
  • Innovis: https://www.innovis.com/creditReport/index
  • ChexSystems: https://www.chexsystems.com/web/chexsystems/consumerdebit/page/requestreports/consumerdisclosure/


    And opt out of pre-screened offers: https://www.optoutprescreen.com/


    You can also get a free monthly Experian credit report and Experian FICO Score 8: https://www.experian.com/consumer-products/free-credit-report.html
    Or an overview of your credit (not a full report) every month for free through Discover, which also includes your Experian FICO Score 8: https://www.creditscorecard.com/registration


    Credit card products that offer free FICO scores (from my personal experience):
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  • If you have a Citi credit card, you can get your Equifax FICO Bankcard Score 8 every month for free (note: this is a different scoring model than the FICO Score 8).


    More on different FICO Score models here: http://www.myfico.com/credit-education/credit-score-versions/
    VantageScore model(s): https://your.vantagescore.com/interpret_scores



    Disclaimer: Any resources I've listed here are ones that I have personally utilized and verified. If you would like to add any other suggestions, feel free to do so in the comments.
  • For trope_bingo.

    Sep. 19th, 2017 05:30 pm
    ladyofleithian: (Default)
    [personal profile] ladyofleithian
    Title: The Prince, the Knight and the Dragon

    Summary: Once upon a time, there was a prince, a knight and a dragon. This is their story.

    Prompt: AU -- Fairy Tale/Myth

    Disclaimer: I own nothing.



    Fic under cut.  )

    For allbingo

    Sep. 19th, 2017 12:34 pm
    ladyofleithian: (Default)
    [personal profile] ladyofleithian
    Title: Golden

    Summary: The fallout of Ben's descent into darkness, and Poe's new role.

    Prompt: Gold

    Disclaimer: I own nothing.

    Fic under cut. )

    For whole_new_world

    Sep. 19th, 2017 09:01 am
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    [personal profile] ladyofleithian
    Title: Broken

    Summary: An amnesiac Poe joins Finn and Rey on their quest.

    Prompt: Memory Loss

    Disclaimer: I own nothing.

    Fic under cut.  )

    Lost

    Sep. 19th, 2017 04:05 pm
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    20 Icons

    Preview



    the rest here @ [personal profile] larmay


    For allbingo

    Sep. 19th, 2017 06:31 am
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    [personal profile] ladyofleithian
    Title: Dark Labyrinth

    Summary: Poe visits Kylo Ren in prison.

    Prompt: Revenge

    Disclaimer: I own nothing.

    Fic under cut. )

    "The Game (of Thrones) Is Afoot!"

    Sep. 19th, 2017 09:28 am
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    "The Game (of Thrones) Is Afoot!" by Jessie Blackwood
    PAIRING: Mycroft/Lestrade
    FANDOM: Sherlock
    RATING: PG-13
    WARNING: WiP
    SUMMARY: Gregory Lestrade is a secret cosplayer and Mycroft is intrigued.

    Has just been added to Sherlock Holmes Slash and is listed on the new stories page and the other pairings page.

    Crossposted to Chance's Archive, Chance's Archive on Tumblr and Chance's Archive blog.

    could've done without knowing, really

    Sep. 18th, 2017 06:40 am
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    So this is what food poisoning feels like. It's fun.
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    Arrow:
    8 Oliver & Felicity, 8 Oliver Queen, 12 Felicity
    2 Carrie Cutter-Cupid, 2 Cupid & Deadshot
    4 Floyd Lawton-Deadshot, 1 John Diggle, 3 The Flash
    1 Thea & Oliver, 4 Thea-Speedy, 5 Laurel Lance

    Supergirl:
    9 Kara-Supergirl, 1 Mon-El-Mike

    Lucifer:
    4 Lucifer & Chloe, 12 Lucifer Morningstar
    4 Chloe Decker, 1 Trixie



    - See the rest here -
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    Title: Hearts & Moons Recall the Truth
    Author: [personal profile] kaffyr  
    Chapter: 27
    Characters: the Ninth Doctor, Rose Tyler, Captain Jack Harkness
    Rating: PG-13
    Author's Note: In which homecomings give way to leave-takings, and Rose says what has to be said.  I thought this was the penultimate chapter, but have since realized it was not. Not quite. But soon, soon.
    Edited by: the irreplaceable [livejournal.com profile] dr_whuh, without whom none of this would be possible. 
    Disclaimer: As much as I wish it were otherwise, no Whoniverse characters are mine. They are the sole property of the BBC and their respective creators. I take no coin or credit, but do thank the BBC for letting me play in their sandbox. 
    Note: Because this is a long chapter, Live Journal may eliminate paragraph breaks, so you might want to read it over on Dreamwidth. 
    Read on: Dreamwidth, LJ, or Teaspoon
     
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